My products and Merch

But a quick story as to how I became a business owner, since you already read my about me section...

 

In June of 2022 I got injured on the job as a police officer because I used my baton to smash a car window for an unresponsive man in the driver seat of our local grocery store. It was a busy Friday afternoon - hot as hell (specifically 97 degrees… I know this because four hours before this life changing moment I was standing in the road directing traffic). As my baton broke the car window, my wrist got sliced in the process. I felt this warm sensation and looked down at a huge gash on my right wrist.

 

Instantly I thought I was dreaming. I performed life saving actions that saved this man’s life before tending to my own injury. When I finally was able to “breathe” because if you are in law enforcement or a first responder, you know ‘scene safety’ before anything else. Well, there I was. Bleeding saying I was “fine”. I just wanted the ambulance to look at my wrist to wrap it up because “I have to go teach self defense class for 5:30”. I was told I needed to go to the hospital for stitches. I am still in shock because I did not think this was real life…at all. 

 

Riding in the ambulance panic started to set in (a little bit). I started to loose feeling in my hand and my fingers. I just KNEW I had to keep moving my fingers JUST IN CASE… I didn’t want to loose them and I figured, “if I keep moving them then that means there is blood flow. If there is blood flow I won’t loose them…but I really can’t feel them”. Fast forward to surgery and a proper ‘diagnosis’… I sliced a few tendons and a nerve. June 17 was the last day I wore my uniform. June 17 was the last day I was able to feel my hand properly. June 17 was the last day I could properly make a fist, hold an object without dropping it and the last day I haven’t been in pain in some kind of way.

 

The last 10 months (as I am writing this in April of 2023) have been the darkest I have ever known. Days were I was watching the clock just to hit 4pm so I could crack open a bottle of wine and drink away my pain (if I started before 4pm then I would think I had ‘more’ of a problem that I didn’t want to deal with). There were days I didn’t want to wake up from this nightmare. Other days I just didn’t think I could handle the pain, the lack of freedom, the lack of independence I once had and honestly… I didn’t know how to be a lefty. 

 

But I do know this. I am here today with the help of professionals, family, friends and mostly…my animals. They really weren’t kitten when they say animals heal your soul because without them - I don’t think I would be here typing this email to you. I knew they needed me more than ever like I needed them…and how do you explain mommy isn’t coming home to animals? You can’t. I refused to.

 

The last 10 months, I didn’t know who I was. I couldn’t smile. I wanted to scream. Dark thoughts crossed my mind almost every hour. I wanted my old life back. I wanted my power back. I wanted to be able to write my name with my right hand, wipe my butt (sorry gross I know but just being honest here), I wanted to be able to make a fist and feel objects when I have them in my hand. 

 

I began to focus on self care every day. At the end of my day, I would light a candle, wash my face, apply moisturizer, some retinol and eye gels. This was MY time. MY time that made me happy. MY time that I can control. Whatever it was, it was MY time.

 

I began thinking, since I have been so down and depressed even watching dog videos on instagram wasn’t doing it for me anymore, what if I do something that makes me happy that I can bring others a sense of calmness with a splash of peacefulness. That’s when it dawned on me. Candles. When When I’m sad, I light candles because it brings me a sense of calmness and peacefulness. When I’m happy, it bring me the same.

 

I welcome you to, the official launch of kelseyfitlifedesigns (kelseyfitlife, LLC.). I am a business owner of a fitness and nutrition brand along with being a candle creator.

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You may purchase a candle by clicking  on a product below. The link will redirect you to my Etsy store.

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IN MY DARKEST TIMES - I FOUND MY LIGHT.